What do you want to be when you grow up? I’d sit with wide-eyed wonder when I was a little girl dreaming of fulfilling God’s plan for my life. I grew up in the church––attending summer church camps and purity conferences on the regular. At a young age, I received the call for ministry and began to develop a passion for worship leading.
My husband and I recently moved, and as we packed up our bookshelves, he made an off-handed comment about how many “self-help” books I had. Feeling sheepish, I grabbed the one in his hand and said “I’ll handle packing these, thank you very much.” But as I picked up where he left off, I realized my husband was right. I am a self-help book junkie.
I have spent the last three years studying, writing about, and living through a season of lament (crying out to God.) It’s been a season of ill health, grief, emotional and physical pain and more. But I have come out on the other side knowing that God is good, that God does good, and that God wants good for his beloved daughters.
Did you ever play hide and seek when you were little? I was the worst at playing the game. I got too antsy in my hiding spots and always gave myself away. Playing as an adult, I became more stealth in my hiding stake-outs. I was much more of an expert at hiding.
So, you want to be a leader? It seems to hold true that everyone genuinely longs to leave their mark, make a difference in this world, and be a leader in some capacity. Whether it’s through an actual job title, or to be viewed as one by your peers; we were all created with purpose to lead in our daily lives; it might just look differently than the person sitting next to you.
Paul spent the rest of his life minimizing his “bigs” – his own accolades, career, comfort, safety, and well-being – to “go small.” Which leads me to wonder … where in my life have I chosen to “go big,” where Jesus might prefer that I “go small”? More importantly, what is my motivation for wanting to “go big” in any area of my life?
At some point, we all come to the same realization. Life is chewing us up. There aren’t enough hours in the day or enough energy in the tank for all the tasks we need to accomplish. Many of us have reached our limit just trying to keep the plates spinning.
2018 has been such an amazing year, and we are so in awe of all that God did this year. As we move into 2019, we are so grateful for each and every one of the Propel women who read the articles, learn from Propel Sophia, engage with us on social media, lead and join chapters, attend events, subscribe to our newsletter, and share Propel with their friends.
When I think of getting to the next level, whether that mean in a relationship, or finding a relationship, or in a career, or in our spiritual lives, or even our health and well-being, I begin by remembering there are only two systems known to humans as to how to make it happen. But there is a big difference in the two. One of them always fails, and the other one is the one that works.
Around the holidays, anxiety keeps us awake at night. Family or marital conflicts are heightened. Financial burdens overwhelm us. Health struggles can be especially discouraging. And on top of it all, there are so many competing voices speaking into our lives, trying to rob us of true joy.